Current location:	computer room
Current mood:	awake
Current music:	no music just comp humming

16days
So, here we are December 1st.... This si the time where things start getting harder to do and when i get cranky moody and just want the world to die. i try to hide it by being all "Go Christmas" but deep down I really dont care.
All i want to do is spend it with the one i love enjoying his company. With my childhood and with Omi passing Christmas isnt the same anymore.. The excitiment of seeing everyone and the love and togetherness isnt there. Well with my family anyways. work right now has screwed me on hours right before christmas so buying presents for everyone is going to get interesting.

Things are going well I guess, I am happy:) I have a god time, living with justin and things just are going smoothly. Yes I still want to be with him and not that it looking like it never going to happen, the thought still naggs at me that it not going to happpen. One day maybe:) till then Ill play it day by day becasue he still makes my day complete. :)
(I know it sappy shut up guys)
This year I will be spending my christmas day with Justin over at Jamie's and Laura's house. It will be nice to actually spend christmas with people and not sitting infront of the computer playing city of heros.

In 16 days and counting Il will be holding on to my godson:) Becky is excited to finally meet her little one.. Hopefully she will be fine and go in a little earily so that the pain will finally leave her. I will be waiting by the phone waiting for that phone call saying I gotta get to the hospital. This would be the first time ill be there when becky goes into labour. Im excited:)
A very tiny part of me knows when I get to hold him for the first time ill want one of my own... Ill keep it to myself so that I dont scare everyone :P
Well that all for now i guess.
Roselouise